23 April 2014

Alma Mater

It's been a while since I last posted anything here. Perhaps I was feeling less inspired since the last post I wrote or maybe I've been busy. Busy trying to figure out life, no? I've missed writing, really. It's a medium to seek solitude to mend whatever has shattered me. Well as the title suggests I am going to talk about what's been going on with this life. Sigh what an appalling life to be exact. Anyhow, I've been occupied with an unpaid job these days; practicum teaching at some elementary school (told ya, mate it's an appalling life). So a few days left (thank God!) before I bid my wishful valedictory to the school and return to college as a normal student soon. Been very much anticipating it though. Life as it is now can be quite exciting yet exhausting. 


As Bukowski put it:
How in the hell could a person enjoy being awakened at 6.30 a.m by an alarm clock, leap out of the bed, dress, force-feed, shit, piss, brush teeth and hair, light traffic to get to a place where essentially you made lots of money for somebody else and were asked to be grateful for the opportunity to do so? 

Well, this is how my life revolves these days which I'm gonna have to go through for the next 30 years (God bless me). Seems like a perpetual deja vu, no? Anyway, I'm currently teaching at some urban school which looks really shabby but the surrounding is pretty fine. Life outside college is quite exuberayting as I can temporarily bail out of curfew though there's nothing interesting around here hence explains why I frequent Kuala Lumpur almost every weekend. It's really tacky honestly. It completely contradicts what I have anticipated before setting my foot here. Nonetheless, being around some good mates pretty much fills the void or else I might have dead out of boredom lol. We try to make the best out of it anyhow. 

Let me recall what I have been doing for the past months. Me and my roommates had an escapade at Bukit Cerakah last few week. That, mate what fun really mean is. Went there on a weekend just to get some fresh air (been breathing in unhealthy air, really). It was awesome. I mean we cycled around the forest and stopped somewhere to peer through the surrounding. That was indeed a great weekend that I rarely had these days. Perhaps, I gotta stick with the right company to have this kind of fun, and not stay-at-home-single guys lmao. I suppose I am quite a naturalist since I am particularly fond of this sort of environment while refusing to stay out of my own comfort zone (unfathomable urban life). I might do this every once and a while. Should get my own bike and cycle around the big city. (Whoa, that would look really cool).

Just another foot note on teaching; I'm trying to get used to the title 'cikgu' now. Still trying to cope with it since all this time I've been denying this title to myself. I don't know. I somehow drew a mental aversion by not allowing myself to be called 'cikgu'. I never address myself as cikgu before but I'm trying to now. It feels weird though. Anyway, whatever God's planned for me, I will absolutely opt for early retirement and get a more promising job. 

p/s: I'm gonna scream 'I SURVIVED PRACTICUM BITCHES' once it comes to an end soon.